In My Memory

Tecktonik was introduced to me by Nab in a college dorm room. I was blown away by the complexity of the music, dance and the people. However, I would not consider this to be my first experience with tck. To truly begin to understand tck, you have to be exposed to a place where you are dancing (which is completely necessary) and there are other people dancing. To say I did not appreciate tecktonik before my experience is accurate, especially in comparison to my appreciation for it now. The setting for this tecktonik "rave" was also a college dorm room, essentially transformed for this type of get together. There were strobe lights/colorful lights making designs on the wall in the darkness of the room, 10 people jammed into this tiny space, huge speakers and most importantly, a DJ spinning the music.
At first I was overwhelmed and, as many would be, scared to dance. What if I wasn't good? What if I looked stupid? After all, this was completely out of my comfort zone (in terms of dance and music). The situation healed itself; you try standing still in a small room with 10 people who are dancing around while you yourself WANT to dance to this catchy music but are not. I'm not sure how or why I started dancing, but once I did, and stopped thinking about the "what if's", I was freed. I let go (relieving the awkward feelings I had about the situation) and danced with the tecktonik-loving individuals around me. The comfort of the situation was that these people loved it just as much as I did (and had initially tried to hide) and went just as crazy as I did when the drop pushed through the speakers. At some point you just stop thinking. By the time I stopped dancing (4+ hours later) in the early morning hours my legs were searing with pain. The music had taken me so far away from my own judgments and my self imposed restrictions (based on those society supports) that I had kept dancing and not felt the pain (that is until the music stopped). The experience was beautiful; I can now see why this subculture is spreading across Europe so quickly. Feeling like you fit in and are not being judged, that you can fully let go and appreciate the music is all part of tecktonik and what it means to be a tecktonik killer.
I hope that eventually this movement will be transferred out of Europe and into the States with the same positive feeling it possesses in France, and the lack of judgment as well. The first step, however, is being comfortable with yourself. Until then...Vive le tecktonik!

"In My Memory" by DJ Tiesto